It’s been a while since I posted on my blog. I’ve wanted to, and have had plenty to share, but you know how it goes, life gets busy. So here I am, to give an update about how I’ve been loving (or disliking) my MS life.
After Dr. Chippendale, my neurologist of 20 years, passed away from an aggressive cancer last April, I knew it was going to be impossible for a new doctor to fill his shoes. That being said, I’m doing my research and refuse to settle for a neurologist that doesn’t have a wonderful bedside manner and knows his/her MS. Period. I’ve always preached to fellow patients about the importance of having a neurologist that is not only trustworthy and knowledgeable, but someone they would consider a friend. The relationship you have with your doctor will be one of the most important relationships you will have while battling this dreaded disease.
The last time I was examined by Dr. Chippendale, it was determined that my MS was “worsening”. I knew I had been dealing with some new symptoms that weren’t new exacerbations requiring IV steroids, but more of a progression of my disease. I haven’t wanted to admit that I was having difficulty on the treadmill or in my yoga classes. My left side, particularly my hand and leg, are weak, numb and tingle a lot of the time. Simple tasks like opening a jar or buttoning a shirt are nearly impossible, not to mention walking my two boxers. Since I’m a one-eyed-patient, any time I have problems with my healthy eye, it obviously needs to be addressed. Since I’m over 40, I thought I just needed some reading glasses to see small print and not have to strain my eye. My ophthalmologist gave me a prescription for glasses and while some days they help me see a little clearer, most nights and some days my vision becomes so blurry I can’t get on the computer or even watch TV.
After over 5,000 self-adminstered injections, tonight may very well be my last (I had to stop and read that out loud after I typed it). I have been a patient advocate while taking Copaxone for almost 16 years. It’s a wonderful therapy that I believe helped keep my MS in check for a long time. I met some of the most amazing friends who not only share this disease with me, but share the same passion to help others who are living with MS. This change is not something I wanted, but I need to do what’s best for me – so I can have the hope of a healthier future, filled with love and laughter (and seeing and walking!).
So as I prepare to give myself what could be my last injection tonight, I will thank Copaxone for the many years and celebrate that Monday morning I will begin a new chapter in my MS Life. A chapter filled with lots of hope!
Thanks in advance for all of your well wishes and prayers.