As I prepare for the big Walk MS event in late April, I’ve been spending more time than usual on the MS Society website. The other day I came across this video — talk about a blast from the past!
In 2005, the San Diego chapter of the National MS Society made the video about my journey living with MS. The goal was to raise awareness by attaching a face (mine) to the disease.
Hard to believe that it was seven years ago, but not hard to believe when I see myself on video and hear my son Jake’s little boy voice. He’s now finishing up his senior year in high school, and is very much a man!
In many ways, this is difficult for me to watch. Not just because my speech was slow and broken (a symptom of my MS at the time) or because I’m sobbing at the end, with a good chunk of time devoted to me wiping my tears and snot in slow motion for dramatic effect!
It’s difficult because it brings back memories of a tough time in my life. I was going through chemotherapy. In fact, I had an infusion the day before filming. It explains my weak emotional state and my short hair — it was thinning out and I had just donated 12 inches to Locks of Love. I remember breaking down on video when Jake left the room and the interviewer asked me “What do you worry most about?”
I’d like to share this little snapshot of my life with you, even though it’s not me at my best. It’s raw and true and maybe it will help others who are struggling with MS. As strange as it sounds, I think that seeing someone being vulnerable and open about the effects of this disease can be a good reminder that you’re not alone.
Before I end this post, I’d like to remind you again of the upcoming Walk MS event in San Diego on Saturday, April 28. You are cordially invited to join my team, Team Hope, and either walk with us or support us with a donation of any amount.
Love, blessings and HOPE.